It's been a nightmare week, Charlie's been really quiet because he's been worried all week about today's scan. He's spent hours online reading everything he can find about Twin-to-twin transfusion syndrome. As a result, he's been even more worried and has been hiding it from me a bit (but I can tell). He's also been bossing me about, telling me to rest and feeding me protein drinks. Apparently, the drinks boost the nutrients in my blood so that twins get more nourishment. This can help if TTTS is diagnosed.
I felt sick to my stomach after our news on Wednesday, the idea that, after everything else, there might be a problem with the twins was the last thing I felt I could cope with. I've come through so much already, with the help and support of so many great family and friends, that for something to go wrong with the boys…well, I was a bit floored. I spent most of Thursday in bed, I couldn't face getting up, and Friday wasn't much better.